purple.

haha i can never think of titles for my posts, haha  so colors it is(: soo volleyball banquet last night was super fun, but not as emotional as you guys described yours(; haha coach fuller cried and the seniors cried but i didnt shed a tear(: ha i dont really count tho cuz i never cry. so i lettered! yay. and got academic all state, which was odd. haha but oh welll(: soo hows everybodys life goiiinnn?(: cuz mines one word and one word only..............................................................................................boring. hahaha(: i hope all of your lives are much more fun and fufilling than mine(:
i love you all.. with a passion.
Love alwaysss
marlow fey

fashion show

yeah im posting again haha but THE VICTORIAS SECRET FASHION SHOW was AMAZING! who watched it? anyone? well if you didnt you missed out on sooooooooooo much! i dont get the math homework! xoox torrey

dude im obsessed

holy crap youre right!!!!!!!!!!! thats crazy!!!!! and we are close to the top too!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol thats awesome if you think about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol so anyway i just watched the newest episode of gossip girl and i must say:  OMIGOD THAT WAS THE MOST INTENSE THING EVER! I AM OBSESSED! it was super amazing and way intense and like the best episode ever! i cannot wait for the next one! seriously! and americas next top model finale is tomorrow night so be sure to watch watch watch! alright loads a homework xoxo t:)

ps. mackie what was going on? (with your rough night i mean?)

pps. whos all gonna go to pipers before the dance?

Oh no!

Dudes! we are totally visible from google! that is not good! so be sure not to telll anyone the name of the blog! cuz they will find us! haha

My tears have fallen, you're lies revealed, my heart has broken, youre eyes are hard, and you've won. We are through, and I still love you.

I'm havin a rough night.
M

slacker

serious blogging slackers! i cannot get even close to 100 words for my french story! help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in a serious rush xoox t

Mack

Wow no one has posted all break?!? Lameeee! So yeah, my family left this morning, and it was really sad, but I think Im going to go visit them in Myrtle beach in the spring, so everything will be good:) and tor tor if you send me one more forward I will punch you where the sun don't shine! Haha just kidding I love you:) I'm actually in a really good mood right now:) Just hangin out listenin to some good ole beatles:) and I finished my topo map so I am very happy! Also Xmas vacation is in only three weeks! Woohoo! So yeah! Anywhoozles,
I love you all very a lot:)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxox(times 172,468,393,720,171:)
Mack

jet-set

jet-set and ready to go! ill miss you guys!!! and ill be sure to send you pictures of the 3 TO 4 FEET OF SNOW COMING THERE TONIGHT!!!!!!!! sooooooooo excited!! lol in a rush! xoxo torrey

ummm

okay so i know i just posted too but lucas is like saying that i better read the bible because it means something to him and it will change my life if i read it, and i will then live for god and jesus and i will go to heaven.....im gonna go to heaven right?! hes like mad!

xoxo t

dance?!?!?!?!?

holy crap! creeper! my computer wouldnt let me go to when i clicked on it....and i was kinda scared to click on it....creepy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people in germany have been viewing our blog! cool right!?!?!? anywho theres A DANCE!! OMIGOSH I MIGHT AS WELL DIE! I CANT WAIT.... lol i am so sick! if i eat anything other than veggies and fruit (very limited amount) then my tummy hurts so bad!!!!! gosh i miss henry and its been like only 3 days hahah i cant wait til wednesday! im going to salt lake for sure and we are staying at this super nice place  (my dad just felt like splurging i guess) and i cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh!!! hahah so yeah and lucas keeps texting me telling me to read the bible and like getting annoyed that i dont go to church and stuff....but then again being kinda flirting...and im not texting him back mosta the time... lol hes funny hah but yeah thats my life xoxo torrey

i know i just posted...but i was lookin at the blog's stats and some people have been viewing our blog from...[url=http://www.freesexvideos90.com]free sex videos[/url]

ummm somebody might want to look into that? im scared.

three little birds

It's snowing. And snowing. And SNOWING!
This makes me happy.  Here's what also makes Ella happy: Singing.  Loudly.  In my room, blaring songs. 
Oh and one more thing~ 5 Day weekends. 
Last weekend was fun! Watched harry potter, then the next day spent 3 hours ( no joke ) at stumptown art studio painting this jumbo mug purple with zebra stripes.  ilove it! :P
In desperate need of a snow fort...im thinkin on the roof? how cool would that be!? Very. 
Im digging the new background:) Change is good.  Keepin things fresh!
I don't even know how to do that formatting stuff.
Just finished up my reflections paper...dont know how relevant it actually is to the prompt.
Got me some skis today:)  I really like them!
Semi-formal dance in Eleven days.
What does semi-formal attire look like?
Not sure....
XOXO
EK

together we can;p

i just wrote my whole english paper on together we can! Its about a boxer who meets a girl who becomes the light of his life and then one day he does something stupid and she leaves him and he just dies inside and doesnt leave his house and so on. its cute but sad kinda....lol its just a draft anyway haha i feel so sick today but whatever! I saw harry potter and it was super good:) i loved when harry and hermione danced together haha oh and ron was so funny! and it was so sad when dobby died! also noah was there and hes so different i feel like! it was good seeing him thought haha alrighty tighty im gonna go do something productive because i feel so happy after finishing my story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxo pumpkins, torrey:)

ps. smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By your side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Keep my distance

almost gone, tired of pretending
cus' all these thoughts can't match a feeling
I'm sick and cold…scanning the radio
looking for a match, not a rivalry.
cus' I don't have a clue, just a feeling.

so I keep my distance,
scream and shout at whispers
as they pull themselves by on the breeze
it's ok if you don't like it,
I won't leave or fight it,
I won't believe in you for now
I won't believe for now…now…now…

like heavy breath blowing on the embers,
a steady rise starts this december…
with emotion in tow,
I'm staring the future alone,
I don't want your facts, I want your dreams.

so I keep my distance,
scream and shout at whispers
as they pull themselves by on the breeze
it's ok if you don't like it,
I won't leave or fight it,
I won't believe in you for now

I wait…suffering…by mistake
how good does this feel?
I don't have to fake…strong enough for this life
to foil my escape…

so I keep my distance,
scream and shout at whispers
as they pull themselves by on the breeze
it's ok if you don't like it,
I won't leave or fight it,
I won't believe in you for now

it's ok if you don't like it,
I won't leave or fight it,
I will be here where I am.
it's ok if you don't like it,
I won't scream or fight it,
I won't believe in you for now…
I won't believe for now…
-m

uber booper cool

except for henry ditching me for some foriegn chicks today was the best day ever! and about to get alot better! see ya soon chicas,                   torrey<3

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what do you want to do about the movie tomorrow? whos going? i thought we could go to a huge group movie but whatever ya guys wanna do xoxo t

ick

today was retarded. dont even ask! xoxo t

really?

DUDDDEEEEEE! who changed the fricken backround! those jelly beans broght me joy. haha whatevaa tho(: hehe today was goooood? mr ruffato definately wants to rape me tho. haha my stupid mom just set me up for it!! hahaha ps i really enjoyed our conversation about cleaning ladies at lunch today(: "SHE JUST HAS NO COMMON SENSE UGHHH I HATTE MY CLEANING LADY" haha love you carolineee(: ha haha anywayyssss(: idk what to say. i never have anything to write on here. haha my posts probably bore you all to dealthhhhh! hahaha(:(: anywayssss.. love yall(: ha thats totally my new thing(:(: hahaha LOVE Y'ALL!!! hehehe(:
<3 marlow fey(:

marlowski- you should post what happened here cuz my phone is in my parents bathroom and I can't get it! And someone keeps changing the background every twelve seconds! Haha tonight was... Interesting. Torrey is preggers and Arthur is the most gullible person ever.
Night!
Mack

deca?

are you guys wearing your deca shirts tomorrow?
t:)

Switch Flipper

ohhh caroline! whys marlow being your wing woman?!?! and marlow i like first period tooooo:p that movie was disturbing! Anywho church was fun fun fun and we bought food for 2 poor familys for thanksgiving and it was pretty cool:p oh and i found out i was pregnant...with an asian baby...wonder where that came from hint hint. Yeah so thats about it lol today was coolio and i was happy with report cards! Okay i have loadsa homework! xoxo t:)

ps. mackie im glad youre not mad at me anymore haha (ella she flipped the switch on me!!! coo coo woman! Joking mackie i love you...special xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox just for you)

pps. heres some kisses for the resta yall : xoxoxoxxxxxxxxx

deeepnessss..

wow i log on after like forever and all of the sudden theres all this deep stuff! haha what did i miss???  What happened to our little lighthearted posts??(: ha just kiddann.. well.. anywayssss(: i love you guys(: ive been so happy lately?! weirddd.. wellll im just really bored with life right now. but its all good(: wow im ramblingggggg(: mackie i hope your feeling better and i will let you know about basketball as soon as i have a decision! so stop pressuring me woman!(:(: haha ellaaa.. your morning presence has brought me joy. haha torrey i love having first period with you.. you brighten my morningss(: and caroline if you ever read this(; ha health is so fun. and what we talked about last night.. GO FOR IT!! i would happily be your wingwoman(:(: haha love yaaaaa
<3 marlow feyyy
(ps loook at my perty colorrr(:

Yeah seriously! Who misses who? And ella Bella, don't worry about me. Nothings wrong. Just, feeling a little weird lately. No worries. You didn't do anything wrong at all!
Love you all,
Mack

Who?

torrey, im bad with names when it comes to gossip girl (and upper classmen) so i sorta kinda understood what you were saying;)  i will in about 2-3 months.
Who misses who? People.  Put yer names after your post.  It helps.
And M.  Do NOT lie.  What the efff is going on.

~emk

Who is that? ------>>>

:/

i miss you guys:/

the darkest moments

The darkest moments in our lives are not meant to be burned and forgotten, but rather they are a memory to be called upon for inspiration to remind us of the unrelenting human spirit and our capacity to overcome the intolerable.

-

Something is said, it sits in my head
It's been there too long, it's killing me slow
It's rolling around, it's pushing me down
It's keeping the good part of me closed

Can't you see that when I find you, I'll find me

Oh I need you to know today I'll wait for you always
My only weakness, is knowing your secrets
and holding them close, and hold them tight
I know the way to silently make you
smile with my eyes, when you're trying to fight

Can't you see that when I find you, I'll find me

Oh I need you to know today I'll wait for you always

broken strings...

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

~m

why?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

~m

dive for dreams

dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind)
trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)
honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death
away at the wedding)
never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for good likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)
in spite of everything
which breathes and moves, since Doom
(with white longest hands
neating each crease)
will smooth entirely our minds
-before leaving my room
i turn, and (stooping
through the morning) kiss
this pillow, dear
where our heads lived and were.

E.E. Cummings

~m.

Gossip Girl family:p

Everyones being so deep:) all ive got to say is i love snow...it makes me want to jump, skip, and hop around and hug people! I made a snowman....around 5 inches tall hehe theyre my specialty! also, ella so serenas brother is eric (the short one) and he is gay and his boyfriends name is elliott. Chuck loves blair, and dan and nate like serena. Vanessa (the curly haired hippi-ish one) is dans old girlfriend/on and off friend, and they live together because it was a decision they made a while back because of something hard to explain haha. So yeah, and juliette is just mean and her cousin is Collin who had a thing with Serena but they broke it off because he was her proffessor...lol Rufus is Serenas step dad, and Lilly is Serenas mother. Serenas mother has been married 2 times before, one to Serenas real dad, and also to Chucks dad who died... Jenny is Serenas step sister because Rufus is Jenny and Dans dad. So if you didnt get that, Jenny and Dan are brother and sister. I think thats pretty much it:) xoxo     t:)

You Choose To Be Sad

Nothing can make you be anything.  Did you know that? You choose. 
That's that only thing i like my mom for right now. 
And my brother is a tireless piece of my life that will never cease drowning me in meaningless questions and crap.

Snow is now here. The world is right again.  Thank God.

I am in love
EK

Oh god.

I was just laying here, listening to the rain...my eyes wandered to my window, and it is raining. And I can see the stars. And now I'm crying, and I can't seem to stop, and all these memories are flooding back to me, and the clouds are blanketing me, the rain is drowning me, and all my resolve is crumbling. I am alone, I am small, and no one will remember my name. And my heart is beating to the sound of poetic bullshit....

M

Not i!!!

Torrey, i'm trying my best to post often!:)
k that creepy guy at the bottom of those pictures? falls under the catagory of hunchback...not animal:P
Something that bugs me about us (and i am definitely partially to blame!) is that we have a hard time following through with things.  SO if we are going to go to harry potter at midnight...PLAN THE DAM THING!
cuz id love to! i might fall asleep though...haha
and we have a five day weekend approaching. let's run away to new york city.  ohhhhh if only. 
my mom's playing knocking on heaven's door in the next room, and ziggy has her head on my lap. 
Life is pretty good, if only there was a love life?
XOXO
~EK

ANIMALLSSS

dudes seriously!! majorly disappointing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO ONE FREAKING POSTS!!!!!!!! WE ARE GOING TO BE PROUD WHEN WE LOOK BACK AND READ THESE SO QUIT BEING SLACKERS! I DONT CARE IF YOU SAY ONE SENTENCE JUST SOMETHING FOR MY EYES TO READ!!!!!!! omigosh so harry potter comes out thursday at midnight and i was thinking it would be so fun to go to a midnight movie! But like no ones parents would let them go on a school night on thursday and it will probably be sold out so i was like BRAINBLAST what about friday at midnight!?!!?!?!?!???????!?!?!?!??!?!? AMAZING i know! So yeah i would love to have a huge movie party with a buncha people on friday (just tell everyone to come) but i dont know about midnight...i mean i want to but i dont know if anyone else does:p anywho yeah my lifes amazing haha not really.....its not bad but not good lol although henry does make me laugh alot lol and so do you guys hahha alrighty off to do math! xoxo t :o)  
ps. coolest face EVER! heres some animal pictures lol





and yeah this one below i just thought was disturbing and funny lol

Laugh it off baby:)

today was a good day:) i just hung out, made gingerbread cookies, built a lincoln log house, talked to henry, and watched the movie grownups(super funny movie by the way hahah)! So yeah thats pretty much it and im pretty tired so im gonna go to bed:)) hahah today my dads friend came over for dinner and they were talking about how greg (my dads friend) knew the owner of mrs.fields cookies company and he got hit by a car and died and greg was like "i guess his cookie crumbled" lol I LAUGHED FOREVER!!!!!!!!! i know it sounds stupid but it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny!!! hahah alrighty tighty i love you guys xoxo and post sometime soon:) also i need to figure out my birthday invites list!! xoxo again, t:)
ps. i laughed so much today i swear i added many years to my life!

Sup

Ahh Last night Sadie spent the night and it was way fun:) we watched movies(including Charlie st. Cloud, which is a stupid movie, but ooh la la he is beAutiful.) and then she left and my mom started bitchin. Ughhhhhh. But anyway, that didn't ruin my mood:) and now um just wAtching Americas next top model:) so ya, that's all:)
m

Khloe and Lamar

I L-O-V-E Khloe and Lamar!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously Khloe has the cutest personality ever(shes my favorite!) and Lamar does too!!!!!! Seriously theyre like a dream couple!! ahhhhhh:)) okay ive gotta go becuase my stupid mom is making me do chores all day long! Its weekend! uggg. Hopefully i can go to the play tonight! xoxo t:)
ps. that post was me reflecting on Keeping up with the Kardashians that i watched last night....so i will post again today about THIS day:) did that make sense? hope so:)

You're my flower child, and I'm your forget me not

Random title I'm aware I was just listening to that song! I can pretty much guarantee that you don't know it, except fir Ella cuz I put it on her cd:) speaking of, let's do that exchange in the next week or so! Yeah so, well I don't have much to talk about, except for the delicious dinner I made myself today! It Was pasta with fresh tomato, garlic and olive oil, and Brie (or however you spell it!) cheese! And the cheesegot all melty and delicious:) haha yeah. And tomoro is our job shadow! Whooo! Super duper excited:)
yeah so ya know what I hate? Boys. Not all of them, but a lot of them. Most of them. They are very confusing/misleading. That's all I'm gonna say! Ha
I also have some lovely quotes for you which I stole from other humans mouths! Haa
here we go:
"songs are emotions that only our souls can understand"
"that you'll never leave where u are until u decide where you'd rather be."
"In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love"
"Smile. Let everyone know that today you’re a lot stronger than you were yesterday"
"It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces."
"All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish te flame of a single candle."
"You block your dream when you allow fear to grow bigger than your faith."

and that is all!
Goodbye, and goodnight,
mw

You and I:)

Such a cute song:

don't you worry, there my honey
we might not have any money
but we've got our love to pay the bills

maybe I think you're cute and funny,
maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you,
if you know what I mean

Oh, let's get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there, you and I, you and I, you and I,

well you might be a bit confused
and you might be a little bit bruised
but baby how we spoon like no one else
so I will help you read those books
if you will soothe my worried looks
and we will put the lonesome on the shelf

oh let’s get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there you and I, you and I, you and

imma be livin till forever:)

If it's true that laughing makes you live longer...with you guys in my life i'll be living forever!!!
Seriously.  I laugh every day.  Especially today!! oh lordy.  why do you like skiing? smells good! (naturally)
oh man miley cyrus just came on my ipod.  SKIP. haha that reminds me of thee history trip.
well that's all i care to share currently.
XO
~Ella

smells good:)

today was such a good day! 1st period was actually alot of fun as usual haha im starting to actually really like mr.carmichael!!!! Hes so nice hahah and he lets us talk out and have fun like all class period!! 2nd period i had gym and it was actually nice because it was short and the running didnt seem that bad at all...and i answered my jeopardy question right(it was supa easy). Thennnn i had english and it was G-reat! I picked out a cool book and i saw caroline in the library and we talked about how we always look for the books that are pink to read before any others:p lol megan told us its racist against the other colors of books but...hey you think i care?! nope not really:) and koler was like talking to someone that period like to the whole class or something idk but he was the only one talking haha and he was saying how he thinks he knocked some kids ribs out of place this morning and he was acting all cool and retarded and it made me resent him sooo much!!! so yeah. THEN I HAD SCIENCE! it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo boring and all our class did was write notes because the other day we were behind and didnt have time to do any...so i wrote fast i guess and everyone was way behind so i kept having to wait forever til she could scroll the page up to new notes!! ugghhhhhersss! hahah that class sucks butt. So then i went to math and the quiz was actually pretty easy...except some of them i didnt really understand what it wanted me to do...but now i have it ALLLL figured out:) After matherooni we had the assembly which was cool but boring and i just kept staring at mackie and henry and they didnt even know it til like the end hahah but the video had some sad pictures and it made me sad:( alsoooo i loved voche primo and i want to be in it sooooo bad!!!! sucks for me...haha although i will proudly be an orchestra member by 2nd semester:))) wink wink! Okay so after that 6th period was soooo fun!!! gosh french makes my life better hahah i dont really feel like explaining what happened because you guys already know from me and ella tellling you!! hahah and mackie was there she just didnt think it was funny (wow mack lol i stilll love you:p)! i thought it was hilarious!! lol ella we were laughing so hard! haha just a wierd class. then i had 21st century lit and it was fun:P levi convinced himself that i am now dating him because i helped him (mr.andersons orders) on his stupid excel car thingymicbob! so yeahhh hahah and then after school i was called stupid over enough times..but thats okay because i was happy and the people calling me stupid are some of my favorite people ever!!:)) xoxo for now chicaboos, t:)

Santa Claus is in the halls!!

The last four events in my day have boosted my mood immensely.  First: some random bells coming from the hall (we decided it MUST be santa) Second: the so very attractive group of male(probably all gay) acapella singers on Glee!  Third: Logos, must i explain further? i don't think i need to.  Fourth: on sunday my mom and i are gunna find a new barn! ya i know...it's not really that exciting.  but for me, it kinda is.
...
And that's all that there really is to share or say.
XO
ELLA

I love you Torrey.














Also, I love the little elf who left a note in my room tonight! Who could that possibly be?! Haha;)




Also again, that little elf took tors math binder out of her backpack and it is now on my bed! So yeah, Torrey, that'd be where your math binder is:)

church

....tacos, meat, dry humping, mingling, making out, jumping, pole dancing, rapists/stalkers...the norm ;p
xoxo t;)

Hey

Hey. As the title already ensued. So, I don't really have much to talk about, my life is so boring it's becoming unbearable. I am so sick of this stupid school and it's only a fourth of the way through the year. Ughhh. I just wanna get the he'll out of this town already. Or more specifically, out of my parents house. Honestly, I would move out this instant if I had the chance. I'm soo bored. My life is soooo dull. Nothing exciting ever pans out. A few years ago, I had a dream, I don't remember what it was about specifically, but I remember one part of it so clearly. I was standing on a bridge with this old guy who was some combination of every person I have ever lost and Jesus. Ahaha I know what a picture. And this guy said to me, "mckenzie, if you're not growing, you're dying. And if you're growing, you're flying." and it stuck with me. And kinda became a life motto. And right now, I'm not growing at all, in any aspect of my life. So I'm dying. And I don't want to die, I want to fly. (cliche I know) so anyway, that's pretty much the extent of my existence at this point.
So yeah,
Mack

ps. I went to the doc, they took a buttload of my blood (again!) and diagnosed me with raynauds disease. Which is most likely the cause of all my crap. So yeah, it's a really long and boring scientific explanation that I will not torture you all with at this point. See you guys tomoro

rules...ick!

its been 23 hours since i last posted...and like 2 days since anyone else has!!!! GUYS this is your duty!! haha jokinggg but something worth posting about has got to be going on in your life!! My parents hate me. Seriously. My mom has a skewed image of me and when i do something wrong she holds grudges on me (any of you seen the Veggie Tales saying not to hold grudges? Its my favorite one) haha and then my dad listens to my mom about everything so hes always mad at me saying i need to learn how to deal with conflict, and my brother is just mean to me but my parents never notice and when i want to do something about it he tells them something bad about me(fake of course) and of course they believe him! It still makes me feel really bad because i feel like im such a problem child, but when theyre making me upset its hard to make them happy again. So yeah tonight my whole family is turned against me. No joke. Im isolated in my room! Despite of all that mess, i feel really happy right now. Wierd i know! im not exactly sure why but im listening to music and i just feel like smiling:)) I love all of yall. ive decided i dont want like a relationship with henry...ya know? i mean at the moment i just feel like something will happen someday...and i just want to keep us as we are or as we will be. That didnt make any sense but it did in my mind haha. i just dont want our relationship to be over-thought or be planned and have rules and restrictions. As you may have noticed, planned relationships are way to overrated for me and my life:p i just want things to be however we want them lol haha so as long as im in it thats how it will be...unless he persuades me otherwise:) so chica boos i love you guys and i hope i can go to church tomorrow even though i highly doubt either of my parents will let me:( haha its sad that when they take all my privileges away church is one of them lol so yeah ill see ya girlys tomorrow...i better go do math!! xoxo                      t:)
ps. lifes pretty good...at school atleast:)))

buttheads(jk)

why is no one posting!??!!! hellppp!!! xoxo t:)

birthday girl?

So ive gotta say, today was quite a birthday. It was alot of fun and relaxing...but it also held its bad. At around 2pm my dad came upstairs and said i needed to come with him right away. When i asked whats wrong he said gemma had been ran over. (gemmas the cutest doggy in the world). I asked if she was okay and he just said "shes dead." Right when i heard the last word my stomach flipped. If any of you have ever had to go through this before, you know the feeling. So unexpected yet soooo horrible!! She was just a year old. So i ran down the driveway and she was laying there in the middle of the road with her eyes open looking adorable and i started crying so hard it hurt. Those sobs that you cant stop and cant breathe. It was just so unexpected. And i couldnt stop for hours. She just looked so cute and she was so young and was so good and was supposed to live with my mom forever. And then she was just laying the in road dead in a second. I was the only one who couldnt control my crying. When we started to burry her it started to rain...hard. Popcorn has already dealed with the death of our old dog, pearl, and he didnt eat for weeks.  Now i dont know what hes going to do:((( it kind of sucks. alot. 

So yeah after that i went up and did my homework and didnt think about it. My mom made a super yummy cake thats blueberry and lime and then i opened presents. I got an amazing antique painting, and whoever has seen my room recently, knows that it will totally look amazing in my room. I also got a cute shirt for riding, 2 pairs of shoes which i ordered this morning, the oakley ski outfit i wanted, a massage, and my moms taking me shopping in town sometime soon! Oh also, today she said she will order me a baby bird from online so that we get it when its super young so it grows up loving us and stuff:)) So that was fun and then we all watched kate and leopold which is such a cute movie! So yeah today wasnt good overall and wasnt bad overall, it was both. I love you all, and i love this blog:) xoxo                        t:)

GOING TO STATE!!!

yay(:(: WHS VOLLEYBALL IS GOING TO STATE BABYYYY(: im soooo stoked!!!(:
2 days of school this week! whoop whoop(:

Our games went super well today. i got tons of blocks which was awesome(: and i blocked a back row attack! haha youguys probably dont know what that is.. but trust me its awesome(: haha its like absolutely the best feeling in the world(:

alright.. well love you all(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TORREY(:(: (tomorrow) haha

<3 marlow feyy(:

birthday eve:)

hahah thats hilarious! How did you figure out it said that? So today at 10AM i got a one and a half hour massage with David, my moms massage therapist:) it was amazing haah and i had alot of time to think. Then i went to breakfast at the buffalo with my mommy and brother and it was yummy hha i saw brennan there lol hes hilarious:p Then i went and rode my horsey and she was soooooooo good!!!! And now i just got home and took a shower and my dad just got back from california! I missed him so so much! So now im going to go watch all my recorded TV shows until 7 when i will hopefully go to the warren miller movie, with or without my dad...since theres also a freestyle team party tonight:) Ella your coming to the movie right? And erin said last night that mackie is too....macks is that true???!!!:)) Also scotts crazy uncle who wears purple everyday and has long hair with one dread lock in the front that he wont cut sent me a birthday present! His names doug and i love him:)) so so so much!! Seriously when he comes to town i always hang out with him and we have the best time because hes so funny!!! and hes a great hugger haha. So yeah he sent me this rock called "a poor mans spider web" and its supposed to give good luck and good cosmic energy:p Hes really into those types of things...but the rocks super pretty looking:) its like light blue with white and black squiggly lines all over it! And quinn sent me a card with a picture of us in it and a necklace thats super cute:)) Okay talk to you soon my dearys! I cant wait til tomorrow! My mom said she will take me shopping around town tomorrow afternoon too! yay! And if i look super happy and carefree monday thats because...a) the massage made me feel so light and AMAZING...b) i will have gotten a bunch of new crap...and c) well, i just love life (period).
xoxo chica boos,                                                 t:)

Instructions for survival

1.Go to google maps.com
2.hit: "get directions"
3.type china, then Taiwan in the second slot
5.read direction #55
hahahahahahahahahahaha

SHOE!

this is the shoe i designed AND WANT!! t:)

these are funny:

t:)

Jag alskar dig ocksa, min kara.

I feel like a branded cow!! I have numbers on my legs and its strange. They won't come off!! I guess that's what sharpie will do.
SO torrey im sorry but i will not be attending warren miller on friday night.  I have to deal with forrest cuz my moms going to a party. howwwwever, if you want to see it twice, i'd be able to go on saturday!
im definitely procrastinating right now. greek calls but blog seems so much more fun.
I hope this weekend will be really chill. I need to catch up on some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz's.
~EK

Banquet babay

God ella you are so right! banquets are so fricking emotional!!!! ahh im going to miss all our seniors next year! Bill called every single person up and talked about each for atleast 5 minutes...and it was so sweet:) the video was also super amazing and super long and i have a copy which i am stoked about! ahhh gosh emotional! Way to rain on my parade! actually it was alot of fun:) So yeah, i lettered which im pretty happy about and i made it into the books as whitefish's10th fastest freshman ever which is cool too. IM SO STOKED FOR NEXT YEAR! so yeahhhh thats pretty much it considering ive already posted tonight 2 times in a ROW. lol. I still havent done math homework which sucks because it looks really long! i love you guys so so much! xoxo, t:)

heres some pictures because i feel lovey...ish:) =

Totally

Totally just looked up what jeg elsker meant! Haha jeg elsker, tor tor!the fact that marlow has started posting just brings so much joy to my heart:) there's certainly not a lack in Ella Torrey and my little notes:) haha yeah so I don't reallyy feel like talking right now, (I know it's a little unusual) and so I'm not gonna!
Toodloodle!
Mack

Jeg Elisker

Jeg Elisker Torrey:) my life is wonderful now...well i just cant wait for fun things to actually happen! Ella i will see you tomorrow at warren miller...and erins house:p gotta go write a note. xoxo,            
                           t:)

ps. i will post again when the banquet is ovaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmmmm

well marlows life is boring but id love to comment on everyone elsesss(: haha so torrey torrey torrey coe(:
you and henry are so fricken good together(: in my humble opinion(:(: haha like honestly how cute would that be?? so cute i could hardly stand it! ahhh!(: haha
Ella and caroline you guys are such studs.. like honestly. could you guysget any more perfect?? god. hhaha
and mackie. i looove you(: hahaha
my friends make me feel so inferior:( haha but i love ya anyways(:(:(: hahaha
Marlow Fey(:

Posting maniac!

im not sure if henry likes me or not and im not sure if i even like him. actually henry and i talk alot(especially when crosscountry was still going on...but still alot now in our free time) and we both decided a while ago we dont know if we like each other or not. its like we love each other but it may just be brotherly sisterly best friend love. I dont know haha but someday something will happen...be it good or bad and we will know for sure hhaha. GOOD JOB ELLA AND CAROLINE! CAN I GETTA SSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTUUUUUUUUUDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! so yeah ella crosscountry would be so fun with you! but i also know how you feel about feeling connected to soccer. I dont know man...but the good thing is you have a whole year to think about it...no rush! So i called bill and sarah and they said they would work something out for me and decide since i dont have the book. Its all good:) Also, i dont have my phone because my mom is super crabby right now and took it from me. So yeah. ella, that soccer picture is sooo cute:) alrighty im sad i dont have my phone and im sad my dad didnt answer when i called him but im happy about life! hahah it all evens out. so instead of being happy or sad...im neutral. right smack in the middle!!! alrighty tighty i better go:) love yall and see you tomorrow! xoxo, t:)

Who knew a soccer banquet would make me cry?

Mackie. You were right, as you always are.   I shouldn't have gone.  I would still be in that ultimate happy zone if i hadn't gone.  Coach morrison, the most amazing hard ass but loved coach in the world, is leaving us.  After only two years, she is going to Utah.  She needs to be with her family... the exact reason was not explained.  I am so sad and ultimately at a complete crossroads.  She led the team to an almost victory and had so much more to teach us.  I am now confused.  Should i stick with soccer that i have put SO much blood sweat and tears (literately) into, or should i do something that has been in the back of my mind since the beginning of this summer...crosscountry?  The girls soccer team is going to have to find another coach, another jv coach and start all over.  Crosscountry has a 4 year streak...and ohh i don't know what to doo!!!!! FML
Caroline got rookie of the year! and she lettered:D but we can let her elaborate more on her next post:)  i got jv defense of the year...whoop. 
I just read those stay calm carry on spoofs and they made me laugh:) thanks torrey i truly did need that. 
Oh an another thing...i say GO FOR IT BABY!!! haha (about torrey liking henry) but he kind of already has gotten used to being friends with you but im sure he could change his opinions...
~~EK

I wanna letter, babes!

Awaiting henrys response to my latest note...and waiting for him to call me tonight so that HE CAN TELL ME WHAT WAS IN THAT BOOK I WAS SUPPOSED TO READ FOR XC! hes a butthead for forgetting to give it to me even though i remind him every 2 minutes! Yeah ortho sucked and they gave me rubberbands that go from my very back tooth all the way to the front! Pain! Kolers been trying to text me everyday since we had that long convo and i just dont replyyyy hah i dont feel like really talking to him. lol alrighty i gotta go! xoxo love ya chica boos ill probably post again tonight:)

Bye,                          t:)

ps. i thought you guys might like these. He could be hotter but you get the point...sorry ella hes not black:p

 (see ladies we arent alone!)

Holy shooties!

Holy shooties! It's been five days since I posted! Sheesh! Yeahs, so I don't really have anything to share. Life is just a little confusing and I don't know how to put things into words. Because they aren't even thoughts in my mind yet if that makes any sense whatsoever! Haha Torrey, just be in love with Henry! Just do it, what's it gonna hurt to try!? Nothing. Is the answer! So yeah, I'm lonely. Haha random, but a pang of loneliness just hit me. So,...
Until next time,
Mack

keep calm and blog on

it feels like forever since i posted! No one say anything about this because im not exactly sure yet but what if henry and i did like each other?

kisses,

             t :)

 
love you guys!!!!